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Post by Sarah Promislow on Apr 26, 2020 18:08:58 GMT -8
Hi there, I was doing well in my kundalini awakening for the past ~1.5years. Releasing a lot, loving more of myself, however started getting false notions that I was “finished”, “ascended”. Soo about 2 months ago some fiery full body terror arose and that’s when my mind slowly began to teeter off balance- anxiety/ego issues I couldn’t handle and worsening paranoia, back and forth with feelings of love and bliss. During this time I started getting lost in my crown, travelling dimensions without control, and feeling like I was floating in the universe but not in a fun way. About a month ago things got dangerously bad and that’s when I sought help, though I should’ve done so much earlier especially cuz I was HARDLY SLEEPING AT ALL however I thought it was progress and that it would pass. Now I am taking meds for sleep/anxiety/paranoia and my thoughts are very rapid and confusing, it’s hard to form words and remember things. I have lost my sense of self. Again, easy to mistake all this for progress cuz they seem to mirror normal symptoms of awakening. And this is awakening, however now I am stuck cuz I cannot face this terror without absolutely panicking, not right now, I do not have the equanimity at all. So I’m in this place where I am VERY aware and conscious thx to open crown- however no connection to what I’m aware of. Now is really the time to ground- for the last few weeks I made the mistake of trying to meditate/continue to ascend instead - but it’s hard for me to connect to life. I have experienced the reality that going inside first- and learning to love me- and then going out into the world was what worked. But now It is not skillful to go inside. The biggest success prospect right now seems to be for me to push the terror back down for quite awhile and be free from paranoia and just learn to feel safe again. I want to do is ground, quite literally, just feel the connection to earth and make it known to myself that I am safe.. it’s so hard to use my mind, for conversation, reading, focusing etc. But I feel like that’s also a part of grounding it’s just so hard lol. I have always been passionate about spirituality/wisdom and my top desire is always for my soul to awaken.. during the times when I was aligned, I loved interacting with the world and also just loved practicing awareness/love. now I am kinda stuck cuz I am not grounded/ready for that, ready to face my shadow and pain. And ok I think this “spirituality” obsession is really just a desperate longing for love again- but I tell myself it requires going within..I dunno. Yeahhh any words of support/guidance welcome ..  thanks.. So |
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Post by scottishgal on Apr 29, 2020 0:35:52 GMT -8
You are Soul and are using the body as a vehicle in this world or plane of matter. You have evidently tried to progress to fast. Apparently mind has taken over and this is causing the confusion. You have to visualize yourself as a ball of light and completely encased in lighti inwhich can't be penetrated by any darkness. I hope this helps.
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Post by WeAreAllOne on May 19, 2020 21:58:08 GMT -8
Wow I really needed to read this thank you for taking the time to share it here. There are a lot of key points there that I resonated with personally that I have struggled with and reading it here in that way really helped connect a few things together for me. For that, thank you.
Been currently dealing with finding a happy medium and looking for a way to stay grounded as well. I could not really put it together, gradually this year, more intense in the past months I have felt a sense of self almost dissolving. It almost startled me when I would talk to someone because it felt like the words were coming from someone else or I was in third person almost. It was kind of a shock at first and I was having a hard time adjusting, personally experiencing anxiety problems as well though it has gotten a lot better. A lot of inner emotions arising, I think a lot of what is going on globally right now is also an inner reflection of inner surfacing. I think we are all dealing with some deep things and we are processing this in a way for us to understand on our own.
I think for a lot of people it's easy to run from the shadow of ourselves and the inner pain that we need to deal and process with but have not and continue to bottle it. I respect your post because it hits on a lot of personal things for myself and honestly I am pretty thankful for reading it right now when I did because of some related inner healing I was doing today and reading this just really helped bring some of that pain and fear to the surface to deal with it. I think now is a great time to continue grounding and doing things that bring comfort and joy. Especially with everything going on right now it certainly does not help at all (rofl) Thanks again for your post, really helps motivate me as well to continue my spiritual journey when I read such similar conversations like this
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Post by Yoda on Oct 10, 2020 15:20:13 GMT -8
You are Soul and are using the body as a vehicle in this world or plane of matter. You have evidently tried to progress to fast. Apparently mind has taken over and this is causing the confusion. You have to visualize yourself as a ball of light and completely encased in lighti inwhich can't be penetrated by any darkness. I hope this helps. This is true. The Universe/Source will let you know how and when to gradually ease yourself into the awakening. My personal experience of awakening took almost my entire life. With some life changing events along the way and subtle changes. I got lead by my guides on a roller coaster process. Everyone's experience will be different and you must be initiated before moving through the steps/phases. Example, you can't expect to learn the advanced knowledge of any particular subject if you haven't learnt the basics and intermediate lessons prior. |
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Post by jahara on Feb 9, 2021 10:49:27 GMT -8
I recommend all of you get a garden and spend time in the dirt for grounding - dig in the dirt every day, if possible barefoot and bare handed; then soak in warm water at least once a week for emotional release. Please don't try to ascend, that is not why you are in a human body on planet earth. If you aren't ready to leave your body you aren't ready to ascend. Who takes care of you while you go through all this?
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Post by Yoda on Feb 10, 2021 19:27:49 GMT -8
I recommend all of you get a garden and spend time in the dirt for grounding - dig in the dirt every day, if possible barefoot and bare handed; then soak in warm water at least once a week for emotional release. Please don't try to ascend, that is not why you are in a human body on planet earth. If you aren't ready to leave your body you aren't ready to ascend. Who takes care of you while you go through all this? We are spiritual beings incarnated on Earth to experience the human condition and the physical materialistic world using or bodies as the vehicle to help us navigate through it. The awakening process is not for all to experience, although there are to types of awakening. The spiritual awakening, which not all go through. Because this is for those who have a specific soul mission to realise who they are, there connectedness to everything, their purpose is specific and they chose to incarnate here to assist humanity. Also their is the awakening from the illusion that clouds our minds of all the lies, deception and deceit that we live in.
Depends on what you call ascend, that happens differently than to raise your vibration/frequency which enables you to expand your level of consciousness from the current 3rd -4th level to the 5th. The fifth being the level Earth wants to evolve to. If we wish to remain here we need to match its frequency/vibration that is done via the awakenings.
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Post by jahara on Feb 11, 2021 7:20:51 GMT -8
I recommend all of you get a garden and spend time in the dirt for grounding - dig in the dirt every day, if possible barefoot and bare handed; then soak in warm water at least once a week for emotional release. Please don't try to ascend, that is not why you are in a human body on planet earth. If you aren't ready to leave your body you aren't ready to ascend. Who takes care of you while you go through all this? We are spiritual beings incarnated on Earth to experience the human condition and the physical materialistic world using or bodies as the vehicle to help us navigate through it. The awakening process is not for all to experience, although there are to types of awakening. The spiritual awakening, which not all go through. Because this is for those who have a specific soul mission to realise who they are, there connectedness to everything, their purpose is specific and they chose to incarnate here to assist humanity. Also their is the awakening from the illusion that clouds our minds of all the lies, deception and deceit that we live in.
Depends on what you call ascend, that happens differently than to raise your vibration/frequency which enables you to expand your level of consciousness from the current 3rd -4th level to the 5th. The fifth being the level Earth wants to evolve to. If we wish to remain here we need to match its frequency/vibration that is done via the awakenings.
Yes, we are spiritual beings experiencing being human on planet earth. My comment was direct to the escapist attitude of the OP. You are right, a person talking about ascension needs to define the term as it is used to mean many things based on an individual's hopes, fears, bias and beliefs. There is a design to this human body and human experience that includes pain, suffering, joy, and many emotional changes, there are 4 aspects of a being experiencing being human on planet earth, mind, body, emotion and spirit. You can't escape any of the 4 without damaging the others. Ascension is not something that happens while you are in your human body and you have to start rememmbering that you are the chooser, there is no experience you haven't chosen so if you don't like what you are experiencing figure out how you can change it OR change the way you think about who you are and what you are experiencing. For example: "I am surrounded by crazy people" is a destructive thought and it might be a good exercise to examine how you feel about each of the individuals that are in the group you consider crazy. On that examination choose one person to find one thing you like about him or her. Once you actually find something move on to another person and do the same thing. Eventually you may understand why others do and say the things that annoy you and if you are very good at this exercise you will realize it is the plank in your eye that needs to be removed, rather than the mote you perceive in the other's eye Practice recognizing your destructive thought loops. If you find yourself thinking something about the external world or your inadequacy or some other emotional trigger that causes you to loop around over and over, you put your thoughts on something that makes you smile or feel better - like the smile on your baby's face (maybe the baby is grown now but you remember the joy of seeing that smile, and remembering shifts our emotions and that shifts your thinking) I am not making this up, it is my experience. There is only one way to escape being human on planet earth, are you ready to give up your body? Because there is no ascension with it. You chose this experience as we all have. As for the dimensions, I get what you are saying but misusing math terms to describe something indescribable is confusing to a lot of people. If we are conscious of past, present and future we already think in 5D (math wise), 3D is the physical world, 4D is the physical world in time, 5D is the understanding of the movement through time/space. So if you want a higher consciousness you move beyond 5D to something indescribable, at least in English and there is where we all have a problem communicating. I know we are all more than the sum of our parts and I know we are eternal, but my consciousness is experiencing being human on planet earth and I get to choose how I think and feel about everything around me and my interactions with others experiences. As for your belief that mother earth wanting us to vibrate faster (that is what you are describing when you say a higher frequency) then maybe you need to help using your physical body to clean up what you can. We all can do better there, and it is just as important as your meditations and clearing your aura and any other thing you do personally. . |
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Post by Yoda on Feb 11, 2021 10:46:01 GMT -8
This is where many people misunderstand the use of dimension and density. What is 3-4 density and 5th density is related to levels of consciousness and not dimensions.
There is no need for a physical body in 5th density. We can have a physical body or we can chose not to. But it is more difficult to interact with a material world. 5th density is the transition phase for physical and non physical existence. After 5th density there is no physical body. Just consciousness.
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thanks.. 
