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Post by Deleted on Feb 23, 2021 6:40:02 GMT -8
Back in the day when my first husband I split up, it went down by him kicking me out of the house in the dead of winter. We just moved to this town and I knew no one, had no friends or family around. And even if my parents did live in the same state I lived in, it wouldn't matter cause my Mom on the same day got arrested for a crime and that was shocking just as much. so anyways, he threatened to kill me if I tried to take the kids with me. I fell into his trap of fear and it cost me so many years of being with my kids on the daily. His family has millions and I grew up on welfare. There was no way I could fight him in court, the judge was a friend of his parents to top it all off. So he got the kids and I got visitation. My daughter has my ex husband's personality traits and she ended up trying to kill me and she slept with the father of my twins while I was pregnant with the twins. On her defense, her brain was fried from an overdose she had, but still that pain runs deep. I know the betrayal from your best friend was hurtful as well. I couldn't even imagine being the type of female that would tell another womans kids crap about their Mom, even if it was true I would stay out of it cause it just hurts the kids. After the pain eased up a bit for me, I realized that all that was a blessing in disguise, it made me stronger in who I am and led me to good life that I have today.
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Post by linen on Feb 23, 2021 7:04:21 GMT -8
You had it a lot worse than I did. I've heard bits and pieces of your story, but this is the first time I know the whole truth. With your hands tied, you really had no choices. You did the best you could back then. A mother's sorrow.~~hugs~~
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Post by Deleted on Feb 23, 2021 7:08:41 GMT -8
You had it a lot worse than I did. I've heard bits and pieces of your story, but this is the first time I know the whole truth. With your hands tied, you really had no choices. You did the best you could back then. A mother's sorrow.~~ hugs~~ (((hugs)))
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Post by Deleted on Feb 23, 2021 7:11:44 GMT -8
the saga continues:
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Post by linen on Feb 23, 2021 8:01:40 GMT -8
You just had all this dumped on you at once! It feels very much like a dark night of the soul experience to me.
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Post by Yoda on Feb 23, 2021 10:21:49 GMT -8
Don't let it worry you. When it's our time to depart this life, only our bodies stop working. Just like when your car breaks down, you get out and walk. The game played for us, the experience of life in a material and physical world has stopped. Our true self, our soul is undying, eternal and is free once again to choose our next experience.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 23, 2021 10:35:17 GMT -8
You just had all this dumped on you at once! It feels very much like a dark night of the soul experience to me. is that what that means?
At the time of my awakening, I believed in God, but really had no understanding of anything spiritual. Like I posted earlier, it was beautiful, the energy that flowed through me and the way it transformed my environment, but when I doubted who I was, the misuse of my energy through me into a dark night of the soul I suppose. Gosh, that was back in 1998. I have learned a ton since then. If only I knew then what I know now. lol.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 23, 2021 10:37:20 GMT -8
Don't let it worry you. When it's our time to depart this life, only our bodies stop working. Just like when your car breaks down, you get out and walk. The game played for us, the experience of life in a material and physical world has stopped. Our true self, our soul is undying, eternal and is free once again to choose our next experience.
o it doesn't worry me anymore. this back around 1998 and into 99. I have learned a bit since then, i am just telling my story from the beginning of my "awakening".
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Post by Yoda on Feb 23, 2021 10:44:16 GMT -8
Don't let it worry you. When it's our time to depart this life, only our bodies stop working. Just like when your car breaks down, you get out and walk. The game played for us, the experience of life in a material and physical world has stopped. Our true self, our soul is undying, eternal and is free once again to choose our next experience.
o it doesn't worry me anymore. this back around 1998 and into 99. I have learned a bit since then, i am just telling my story from the beginning of my "awakening". My bad
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Post by andromedan on Feb 24, 2021 9:01:11 GMT -8
Wow, that was intense. The strongest ones of us have to go through the most stuff, so you're obviously a very strong one.
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